Karma

I’m a believer in Karma, wholeheartedly.  I blame it all on Mackel.  I feel as if everything negative  is creeping up on me right now and kicking my ass.  It’s hard to say which specific action sparked my current life turmoil but I’m pretty sure it’s there’s a tolerance level before it says it’s had enough and decides to cough up all that bad stuff on you.

Sometimes, I don’t even feel like moving.  I don’t have the motivation to.  I wish I could sleep all day and not be in contact with anyone.  I don’t even feel like walking my dog.  I can’t cry.  If I will, it’ll open the floodgates but I want to so bad.

It’s like, I know the person I want to become, but I don’t know what’s more upsetting.  Whether it’s situations where I just completely ignore it, or when I feel like I’m close to it and fail.  I’m a failure.  I don’t even know what I wanted to say next.

Worst week ever

It started with a comment then it just kept rolling downhill. Sigh. You guys don’t wanna know the half.

Pretend Adult

I’m a pretend adult.  I pay my bills but that’s about it.  Sigh.