A Goal
In light of recent events I have decided to finally have a goal in this thing called life. That goal being, to write a book. I don’t know how to write a book and I’ve never wrote more than twenty pages in my life but I plan on doing it. I only have the first line and if that serves as a root, then this tree will be strong. Pray for me.
Why I Love Kobe Bryant
Because he doesn’t give a fuck. When he hit his last three pointer and he put his finger up to his mouth to slience the Spanish players, I got a look into his mentality. Kobe wants to be the best in the world and had the attitude to prove it. He doesn’t care if he dunks on his team mate, Gasol to get where he needs to be. He was upset when his team was up by 8 with 26 seconds and yelled at the ref because he got his 3rd foul. Perfection. He has the right to be cocky because in a way you need that attitude. That attitude says “Yes, I am Kobe Bryant and I can beat you. I’m the best in the world. I made you. Eat my shit while I go get my gold medal.”
Sorry to blame it on you.
Recently, a lot of females have been asking me why I don’t have a girlfriend. Usually I answer with a simple “I don’t know”. It wasn’t until recently that I actually started to give some thought to a logical answer. It’s actually a combination of a few things. One, I can’t always have what I want. Ha, even though I’ve realized that what I wanted, isn’t what I needed. Second, it seems that nowadays, even with many girls interested in becoming my significant other, none really distinguish themselves as a standout. At least in my eyes. Who’s bringing these girls up? None, really exhibit what many people like to call “wifey” qualities. It’s in the small details that really impress me. Just those little things that let me know you care or you’ve taken notice to how I feel about certain things. I haven’t really experienced this from any particular female. It’s not completely the female’s fault either. Half of it is on me. Sometimes, I just don’t want one and other times I’m not ready. Mentally that is. I can be changed though, easily once I get a sliver of those wifey qualities i yearn for.
I don’t love ‘em, I fuck ‘em
So Kelz and I we’re having a short little BB Messenger convo about emotionally unattached men. She was saying that a guy’s feeling for a girl could be mutual but he avoids her on certain emotional levels. Over the last few months as my friends get older they start thinking that they need to settle down and blah blah blah / “American dream” it up, however it seems as though that the people who look like they have their lives together can’t experience the mind-blowing love that has been exposed to them. They get involved with these partners and wind up putting way too much in and not getting a damn thing out of it. Especially the females, who use the oldest trick in the book. You can’t ask a guy who you JUST FINISHED HAVING SEX WITH to be your boyfriend. It’s not happening. This is not “The Wood”. Seeing as how my friends are a majority young, successful, African-Americans I would kind of expect that behavior. Men have that kind of Spartan mentality. No emotions given whether it be within love or war.
Why doesn’t he want to be your boyfriend? Because he’s either insecure about you and just isn’t telling you, or it’s probably just you. Maybe all you do is have sex, which is really building your wifey points, not. Maybe you gave it up too early, or perhaps you only come by past midnight. What kind of example are you setting? All while he high-fives his best friend commenting on your head game.
Don’t get me wrong, I would jump on the opportunity of true love but let’s all do it the right way, and we’re all smart enough to know which way that is. To help the ladies out, I told myself I would stop having sex until I’m married so that I can develop something real with one person. I’m not saying sex corrupts, but you have to see what’s marketed to males. Pimps and players and every man wants to bask in the glory of that mentality if only for a little while. Tragic thing about it is, once you go head in, he basks in that glory, sometimes.
Funny Quote from Mr. Moody
“The fact that they haven’t cured anything relevant in years but have drugs to keep my dick hard until i die. not to take away from ED, but come on!”
Blacks in Education
Watching the CNN special Black In America has caused a lot of uproar. Fine, there are disparities in family, upbringing and various other issues, but the only one that truly matter is education. Having two of my good friends become teachers has opened my eyes to the true link in the difference behind minorities and their white counterparts. That being, education. Let’s think of all the benefits that education can give to an individual. In my eyes, the biggest contribution it can make to a black student, is exposure. Once an individual takes heed of their education, many opportunities arise for them also, different ways of life are presented to them and they get to receive options as to what they would like to do.
The issues with education, I’m learning, start way before the classroom thus making it the source of the others. Watching a special on the learning curve of Black America has shown me that the real issue starts at home. On a particular Parent-Teacher night, maybe 150 parents showed up in a school of 1100. Parents have to get, and stay involved well into their child’s education. I know that I’m an odd case. My parents and guardians stopped caring after I went to high school but at least I had that ground base leading up to it.
We always say that teachers are the source of helping education. That to me, is just the bottom. If I were to be involved I would first get rid of all these statisticians because once they release their figures it can give blacks another excuse. Second, I would involve sociologists psychologists to privately sit down with students and find out what real issues are affecting them. In my experience, and I don’t mean to make a judgement of anyone, young people just don’t know how to express themselves and communicate with people they know are trying to help them. Once blacks know that society is against them, it will create more motivation because it can inspire pride in some. I’m just skimming the surface, there’s more. To Be Continued…
