I apologize to the fans.

Sorry people, I’ve been experiencing plenty of writer’s block lately.  It’s not that I haven’t received the stimulation I’ve needed to pen(or type) a writing, it’s that I can’t transfer my thoughts into legible words.  Sometimes, things can’t be translated, and some of my thoughts are just one of them.  Am I ashamed of this, yes.  But it will all work out in the end.  I got yall.  

No dreams

Haven’t had a dream in a while.  Might be making that transition into reality.

The NBA Finals…good job.

I’ve never been to Boston, but honestly I kind of don’t want to go.  Everything I loathe is there.  The Red Sox, the Patriots, the Celtics, the Boston accent, Samuel Adams beer, the blatant racism that some of my friends have experienced, and tea(like seriously, they were dumping tea into the ocean and calling it a party.  Plus, one of the men organizing it was Samuel Adams) and even Harvard.  Ok, I take that last one back but that’s my one exception.  Watching the NBA Finals was a gut-wrenching experience for me.  I wanted L.A. to win, even though I knew that the Celtics were better overall.  If I was a fan of sports based purely on the athletic abilities of the players, then of course the Celtics would be my choice for the champions.  However, I am also a fan of history.  What NBA fan doesn’t know the name Michael Jordan, Magic Johnson, Larry Bird, and Bill Russell?  We all know that the Finals this year was super-hyped due to how many times these two franchises have met in the Finals(11).  Those were the “real” rivalry days not what has happened over the last two weeks but that’s besides the point.  

The point that I’m trying to bring up is actually no point at all.  I wanted to write about how the 80’s Celtics were predominately white while the 80’s Lakers were black.  However, the coach for the Celtics during that time was a former Celtic K.C. Jones(black man) who represented a turning point for that franchise and the coach for the Lakers was Pat Riley.  I also wanted to write about how Red Auerbach, the manager for the Celtics was under heat for his team being too white but he drafted the first African-American into the league.  Then there’s Bill Russell’s accounts of blatant racism he experienced while being the so-called “black puppet” for the franchise while they beat L.A. back in their first meeting in ‘59.  However, I’m pretty sure he wouldn’t trade any of his rings back in.  I appreciate the fact that I saw an embrace between him and Kevin Garnett after the win.  So there’s nothing more I can really say about my personal hatred for the Celtics besides the fact that I really wanted Kobe to have a ring without Shaq and……I’m from NY.  

Sign the Wall

I’m just curious as to who takes an interest in my little electronic paper I got here.  If you read this post, feel free to leave a little comment with some information about yourself.  I could use the user feedback.  It’ll make life a little easier for you and I.

The Bandwagon

Ok, I like Barack.  However, he’s like a female that you know is attractive but really don’t know anything about.  His swag is just cool.  However, I know nothing about him.  I know he’s a black man, his oratorical skills are impressive, and his stances on the issues, but what else?  I’ve read part of The Audacity of Hope and even though he gives a lot of history, it had yet to compel me.  Maybe I should read his first book.  I think a lot of people are just jumping on the bandwagon and his name has just become as popular as Lil’ Wayne at the dinner table.  As a man rooted in experience for a job, McCain obviously takes the cake, but sometimes a fresh idea can lead to more progress.

First Place

I’ve mentioned this in another writing and want to reiterate it as the topic of this particular post.  ”Nice guys finish last.”  To elaborate on that quote and to bring into a smaller scope, so do sensitive guys.  When I say sensitive, I mean getting too emotional when dealing with a female.  For instance, if that guy doesn’t get his way then he will wear his emotions on his sleeve immediately and show his disapproval.  There are a lot of factors that can contribute to this (i.e. only child, shout out to Steph) but I don’t feel like elaborating on that.  Remember that part in Bedazzled when Brandon Frazier asked to be the most emotional guy ever.    As a result of his wish, his girl left him immediately.In my observations, females don’t like that and they become the ones that are more open to cheating and flirting with other males.  Women are emotional creatures, there’s no denying that.  I’ve seen a female cry while I was cleaning her floors.  SO, they know how to deal with other emotional creatures (sensitive guy) and get what they want out of them.  Females expect us to be men.  Of course they would like to be available to your feelings but for those little things that cause a slight bit of anger, or maybe even jealously from you,  it is better for the female to play Matlock and find it out from you in a less open manner.  

Carter III < Seeing Sounds

Maybe it’s because I’ve been listening to the Carter III for the last week and a half.  Maybe I’ve been a fan of NERD’s signature sound since their first album but does anyone besides me think that Seeing Sounds is better than the Carter III.  I admit, I am a fan of gangsta rap, but you just can’t listen to it 24/7.  Today I popped in that new shit and I appreciated that new shit.  The sound is typical NERD but so refreshing nonetheless.  I can imagine a girl popping it in while I’m sitting in her room while she dances in her underwear(lol, true story?).  The lyrics are great, sounds are different, and Pharell’s falsetto is good music to ride in your car to.  I just plain like it better but I will listen to the Carter just as much as Sounds. 

 

The Tempation

There’s a temptation deep inside of me that says: “Go”.  Like the re-curing Common song.  I don’t know what it is.  It’s hard to fight.  Sometimes it’s not even a reaction from them towards what I do, and sometimes I don’t initiate.  It just happens.  Now it comes to a point where I just feel guilty.  I shouldn’t chase the cat at this point of my life.  I’ve already decided that I have a goal in sight.  My fortitude is being tried on a daily basis.  When I don’t adhere to temptation, I feel as if I am losing my edge.  I must stay keen, sharp as a blade.  I’m sorry to her.  If I dedicated all the time to her instead of pursuing these false dreams I wouldn’t think of her in my real dreams.  I can’t stop them because I should’ve never gave them that in the first place.  Now I wonder is it because of that, that we don’t have something more?  I can’t help who I am, but I can help who I am to you.  Please believe.  Help me, help you………sigh.

The Way

Remember when we were small and the life plan was laid out for us?  It went something like:  Go to school, get good grades, graduate from college, get a good job, start a family, save, try to retire early, take care of your family.  Remember that?  Well, what happens if you miss a step?  Then that probably means you’re t’eed for life.  Plus, another major issue I have with that little formula is where’s does your personal happiness lie.  A little thing I like to call passion.  Are we to assume that it will eventually find us within that cycle?  Ok, it has for some.  It seems like if you miss one then true fulfillment will probably be denied or at least in the eyes of others.  

Don’t bother me dude

Come Tuesday, you probably won’t see me unless you spot me randomly getting food somewhere.  Shit I might not even eat.  Most likely, I won’t even change my underwear.  There are two reasons for this, one of them I already explained.  The other is: