Some Notes

~ I keep a book of quotes with me everywhere I go.  If I see something inspiring I write it in my book.  I’ll post some of them a little later on.

 

~ I’m done reading the NY Daily News and the Post.  They’re the biggest tabloids in America.  My teacher in 6th grade said tabloids open left to right and newspapers open up and down.  I didn’t believe it until today.  On the front page of the Daily News it mentioned the Election in Pennsylvania.  However, the article didn’t appear until page 6.  Guess what was on page 2?  Alex Rodriquez’s new baby.  Go figure.

 

~ I had another dream with her in it last night.  More crazy.  I’ll write about it later on tonight.  

 

~ Coming back to Atlanta on Friday.  Can’t wait.  B4 i come doing some last minute goodbyes and hot dog/pizza eating.

The Woman of my Dreams

I’ve recently had a series of dreams about a particular woman.  She’s been in a number of situations with me in these dreams and she mostly winds up in my arms.  It’s not a few dreams where she is just there off to the side; she has been the main character in each of them.  In one, it was only she and I.  Yes I do know her in real life and I have considered developing something with this woman but not in the way that it has been portrayed in my dreams.  My friend Anthony said that my dreams have nothing to do with that person, it’s all about how you feel because it’s all in your mind.  Have the dreams further increased my interest in this woman?  Of course.  Maybe that’s why it’s getting deeper every time I have a dream about her.  The last one was particularly interesting.  I won’t tell you the whole story because it will reveal too much but she wound up in my arms crying and holding me very tight.  Women (sorry for the blanket term) just don’t cry in regular people’s arms.  I don’t know what that means.  I could be taking a mile with the dreams but is she the one?

Done with Drinking

Yea I think I’m pretty much done with this whole drinking thing.  Too many highs and lows.  Way more highs then lows.  I don’t feel I need it anymore.  There used to be a time when alcohol got rid of a few inhibitions, but I’m way to confident now to not feel secure in my endeavors.  Plus, I feel like shit when I wake up.  I’ve only had one hangover and it wasn’t that bad but whenever you wake up you feel super dehydrated, tired, and hungry.  The last one you can get rid of quickly but the other two takes some Gatorade and some other things.  I go to sleep not to feel tired and it just doesn’t work out when I drink the following night.  I think I can get rid of it for a while.  Maybe some wine once in a while though.  I had some amazing white sangria last Friday.  I can drink that all day.  

Describe me to a person that liked me….

My friend Monica asked me to describe her as if I were to hype her up to someone that is feeling her. To see what I wrote you can check her FB page later (“Big Breast”, lol). I asked her the same question and this is what she said:

“Kinda short but his love for life makes up for it. Full of jokes but knows when to get serious. Takes care of those he loves, would give his last dime to make sure you’re straight. Very consistent. Husband material, definitely! Likes to be the life of the party. One of my best friends.”

She warms my heart.

Short Convo W/ Brother 1

My Brother works as an auditor/advisor for Delta via PwC, a large accounting firm.  When I got the news yesterday that Delta had merged with Northwest we had a short text message convo that went like this:

 

Sean- “Damn, so you just had to make Delta eat NW, huh?”

 

Chaz- ” Ha, now integrating them is going to be a bitch.”

 

Sean – “Right.  Good luck with that.”

 

My brother, a man of a few words.

Fast

Is there anything wrong with being “fast”?  By this, I mean rushing into things, mainly sex, with another individual.  When things are too right between individuals and they click immediately, (ok, maybe we can exclude the sex) are they considered fast?  There are plenty of scenarios and mindsets that we can apply to relations between the two.  We are always taught to go after what you want, but on the other hand we are also taught to take our time when making important decisions.  Should the later be considered when dealing with emotions?  Rushing into things is notoriously known to end up in bad results.  However, there are plenty of couples who fell in love after a short period of time and are still together today.  Sure they might’ve had the usual issues, but that’s just what it is, usual.  I’ve been guilty of being hesitant in pursuing individuals I have had feelings for a number of reasons such as me not wanting to be vulnerable, or doing anything wrong that could jeopardize my relationship with that person into becoming something more.  Was that wrong given the argument of always going after what you feel is right?  There are no ground bases when dealing with emotions and strong amounts of feelings towards others and that scares people when they have strong emotions for someone.  That’s not to say we shouldn’t act on them no matter what the speed.  If you consider another person to be “fast” put yourself in their shoes and question whether you wouldn’t do the same thing.  Ok you can be fast if you have sex with a very large number of people though.  Just to clarify that. 

Friends

Last weekend I had a very “small” gathering at my house in Brooklyn.  Friends from high school and college, new and old joined me for a dinner (read: feast) while we drank and mingled.  It’s good to see that I have built a very strong network of friends around me.  I am also glad that I have maintained these relationships over the years and look forward to continuing them in the future.  Grandma cooked the favorites and I think I’m close to convincing her into putting her fried cornbread into production.  You don’t know how amazing tastes until you’ve had these little golden nuggets.  Sorry, back to the friends.  It’s amazing that once people reach a certain age they start wondering about the lives they touched and how they have affected each one.  I always put it into the perspective of if I were to be gone tomorrow, would my friends still continue to be friends without my presence.  I’m not trying to say I’m cocky and I’m the missing link but I want to believe that I have forged more friendships through my association.  I would be satisfied with achieving that goal in my life.  

The Economy: My Opinion v.1

I think I’ve figured out why the American economy is going down.  Basically, its comes down to California and its stereotypes. New York can can be semi included in this argument as well.  Since Cali is a lot more liberal, based on stereotypes, then a lot of other states, that mentality spread throughout the rest of the US.  Now people want to be free from the chains of America i.e. Oppressors of the gov’t, and the regular 9 to 5.  Then they stopped working.  They wanted everyone to adopt a mentality of “finding their true path in life”.  Because of this, they didn’t work and partied and took away from the labor force of America.  This eventually led to the decline of many businesses and eventually the entire economy.  I’ve never been there but from what I’ve seen in the movie Blow and from Cali people I know who like to defend everything and believe that everyone is “ok”.  What happened to the cutthroat attitude that powered America starting in the 1930’s until just recently?  People started getting soft.  I’m not saying to stop being ethical and moral in your decision-making (which is another phenomenom that emerged in the late 1990’s), just a little more agressive.  People started caring for others feelings.  Feelings don’t belong in the business world, unless its just blatant discrimination.  Man up everyone, this is business, not friends.  Friends and business don’t mix.  No one was complaining when we were in WWII and everyone wanted to help out.  Do we always need a cause to do everything?  I think the baby boomer generation developed a great formula.  Go to school, get a good education, and get a job, save and retire.  Sure this prohibits a few things like happiness, temporarily.  But learning how to work the system can help that.  Then we get back to cutthroadedness AKA no bitchassness.

D’Evils

“None of my friends speak.  We’re all trying to win……Nine to five is the way to survive, but I aint trying to survive. I’m trying to live it to the limit and love it alot..”

Jay-Z

One time I was sitting in Atlanta’s Hot 107.9’s recording booth doing a promo for this Greek Party and J.Nicks said “The rap game is just like the drug game.”  I laughed.  Really loud.  That wasn’t the first time I heard that but it just doesn’t make sense to me given his limited success.  The only person I can hear that from and believe it is Jay.  The line I posted up there is from his first album from the song that shares it’s title with this post.  

When it comes to politics and business, everyone wants to win.  No matter if it’s them, their company or their team.  No one wants to give away too much of their strategy or business plan.  It’s a key to business, therefore keep your mouth shut.  However, you still need your “friends” to use their strengths in your advantage.  The selfless friend offers everyone an equal share and becomes completely transparent when needed.  So drug game= rap game = big business.  Maybe, maybe drug dealers are some of the smartest people in the world.  They take lots of risk (their life, their loved ones), but maybe they just don’t like to pay taxes.  Al Capone ass men.

American Nightmare

I can’t even stick to the script anymore.  My plan was simple.  If I didn’t make it here in America I would take what I had, go to a country whose economy is in shambles, exchange my money and live wealthy.  You know that scene in Eurotrip where they’re worried that they only have like 2 dollars but then the next scene cuts to a lavish hotel, and the guy goes “Gotta love that exchange rate.”  That could have been me.  But now America’s globalization plan has backfired.  Read this NY Times Article.  Basically, if I never worked in America and became unsuccessful (God forbid), I would go move to Vietnam for the rest of my life and live off cheap goods.  I’ve been poor before, I don’t mind.  I could eat pad thai with shrimp for the rest of my existence and drink Tiger Beer(mmmm, Tiger Beer).  Now, I’m fucked.  I can’t exchange my U.S. dollar for anything because companies decided to move towards a “World Economy” and started forgetting about the investors who got them there.  Take care of things at home first ok buddies.  Thanks.